100 Desires | The Life I’m Available For

There is something beautiful about admitting exactly what you want without immediately asking yourself whether you’re being realistic.

For once, I don’t want to negotiate with my desires.

I don’t want to make them smaller because they sound expensive. I don’t want to dilute them because someone else might think they’re too ambitious. I don’t want to turn every dream into a five-year plan before I allow myself to enjoy the thought of having it.

I simply want to want.

I want a beautiful life.

I want money.

I want freedom.

I want a thriving business and several streams of income.

I want a peaceful home, a beautiful garden, a successful career of my own making, a comfortable life for my son, beautiful clothes, good food, travel, creativity, health, experiences, and enough financial abundance that I can make decisions because I want to—not because I’m calculating whether I can afford not to.

I want to build.

I want to learn.

I want to travel.

I want to create.

I want to be ridiculously good at the things I enjoy.

I want to make money from my ideas.

I want to have more than enough.

And I don’t think I need to apologize for any of that.

Some of these desires are practical. Some are luxurious. Some are deeply personal. Some might seem completely random a year from now.

That’s the point.

These aren’t tasks.

They’re not resolutions.

They’re not a business strategy.

They’re not promises about what I must accomplish.

They are simply a snapshot of the woman I am today and the life she desires.

So I’m writing them down.

I’m letting myself imagine the full version.

And then I’m leaving them here.

17 August 2026.

I’ll come back one year from now and see what happened.

Not to judge myself.

Not to calculate how much I “failed” to achieve.

But to meet the woman who wrote these words and see what became of her desires.

Maybe some will have happened exactly as imagined.

Maybe some will have arrived in completely different forms.

Maybe some will be so normal by then that I won’t remember how badly I wanted them.

And maybe I’ll read a few and laugh because I was still thinking too small.

I like that possibility.

So here they are.

My 100 Desires

Money, Business & Abundance

1. I make my first KSh 1 million in revenue from my exam-related products and sales.
2. My gift shop consistently generates at least KSh 100,000 in monthly sales.
3. My combined income streams consistently generate KSh 200,000+ in monthly net income.
4. I completely clear all my debts and experience the freedom of owing nobody money.
5. I have at least KSh 500,000 comfortably sitting in savings.
6. I build substantial savings and investments that continue growing while I live my life.
7. I have multiple strong income streams from my products, websites, services, digital products, advertising and other aligned opportunities.
8. My income is diversified enough that one slow month or one slow business doesn’t shake my financial foundation.
9. My gift shop becomes a recognizable, trusted brand that customers deliberately seek out.
10. I have a strong base of loyal returning customers.
11. I attract aligned clients who know exactly what they want, communicate clearly and pay me on time.
12. I work with corporate clients who purchase my products in bulk and value the quality of my work.
13. I attract exciting, well-paying opportunities that are aligned with my skills, interests and the life I’m building.
14. My business attracts customers who trust online shopping and confidently buy from me.
15. I have the machines, equipment and tools necessary to take my production and business to the next level.
16. I expand my offerings into products and services that are profitable, creative and genuinely aligned with me.
17. I create a product that becomes a major success.
18. I build products that sell consistently without me constantly having to chase customers.
19. My social media audience grows substantially with people who genuinely enjoy my work.
20. I become completely comfortable showing my face, personality and voice online.
21. I become exceptionally good at marketing my own work.
22. I become an excellent salesperson who can confidently communicate the value of what I create.
23. I grow my personal brand into something people recognize beyond my individual businesses.
24. My businesses are organized and systemized enough that they continue running smoothly when I take time away.
25. I understand my business numbers deeply and make decisions from clarity rather than guesswork.
26. I earn enough to comfortably cover my lifestyle, save, invest, give, travel and enjoy myself.
27. My websites attract substantial, consistent traffic from valuable audiences around the world.
28. My websites consistently generate $500+ per month in advertising revenue.
29. I have fully paid VPS hosting for my websites and the infrastructure I need to run them reliably.
30. I create digital tools, products and resources that generate meaningful income beyond physical products.

Home, Land & My Future

31. I live in a safe, peaceful, beautiful neighborhood that supports both my business growth and Adriel’s education.
32. I have a beautiful home with my own private compound.
33. My home has enough outdoor space for a kitchen garden and all the plants I want.
34. I grow herbs, vegetables, fruits and beautiful plants around my home.
35. My home feels peaceful, warm and beautiful the moment I walk through the door.
36. I fully furnish my home with high-quality pieces that genuinely reflect my taste.
37. I have beautiful, comfortable, luxurious bedding that makes my bedroom feel like somewhere I want to retreat to.
38. I have beautiful curtains, rugs, furniture and finishing touches that make my home feel complete.
39. I create the biophilic, sustainable home I’ve imagined for years.
40. I have beautiful plants throughout my home and outdoor spaces.
41. Every room in my home feels authentically like me.
42. I narrow down my preferred land in Matuu and confidently begin the buying process.
43. I begin developing my land instead of keeping it as a distant future idea.
44. I fully design my future home exactly the way I want it.
45. I begin accumulating quality materials and resources for my future home.
46. I create a financially intelligent path toward building my dream home.
47. My future home has beautiful, sustainable landscape design.
48. I have a home where I can work, create, rest and raise Adriel comfortably.
49. I have enough privacy, outdoor space and peace without feeling disconnected from the world.
50. I own a beautiful home that represents how far I’ve come.

Adriel, Family & Experiences

51. I take Adriel on a beautiful vacation to the Kenyan coast by plane, around November 2026 or early 2027 when it is quieter.
52. Adriel and I create memories together that he treasures for the rest of his life.
53. Adriel has a stable, peaceful, secure and beautiful home.
54. Adriel attends an excellent school where he is happy, supported and able to thrive.
55. I build a substantial education fund for Adriel.
56. I comfortably provide for all of Adriel’s needs without constantly worrying about money.
57. I can buy Adriel quality clothes, shoes, books, toys and things that genuinely make him happy.
58. I travel with Adriel regularly and expose him to different places, people and experiences.
59. We take spontaneous little adventures simply because we feel like going somewhere.
60. Adriel has a childhood filled with beautiful experiences, laughter, travel, creativity and love.
61. I am emotionally present, patient and grounded with my son.
62. Adriel always feels safe coming to me with his feelings, questions and problems.
63. I have enough financial freedom that providing for my son doesn’t consume my entire life.
64. I comfortably support my family from abundance rather than obligation.
65. I can send money home generously without feeling pressured, resentful or financially depleted.

Health, Body & Beauty

66. I reach a healthy weight where I feel comfortable, fit and confident in my body.
67. I become strong, fit, flexible and physically capable.
68. I develop an enjoyable, sustainable way of eating that nourishes my body.
69. I eat delicious, nourishing meals that genuinely satisfy me.
70. I have a peaceful relationship with food.
71. I develop movement and exercise habits that I actually enjoy maintaining.
72. I sleep deeply and wake up feeling rested and restored.
73. I take excellent care of my body.
74. I regularly enjoy spa days, beauty treatments and moments of being pampered.
75. I feel beautiful, feminine and confident in my own skin.
76. I become the kind of woman who continues taking care of herself even when life gets busy.

Creativity, Skills & Curiosity

77. I continue learning and perfect my baking skills.
78. I become exceptionally good at cake decorating.
79. I create beautiful cakes that I am genuinely proud of.
80. I learn how to sew.
81. I become skilled enough at sewing to create beautiful and useful things.
82. I learn how to swim.
83. I become completely comfortable and confident in water.
84. I find a welcoming badminton leisure club that I genuinely enjoy.
85. I develop hobbies that exist purely because they make me happy.
86. I continue becoming excellent at landscape design.
87. I learn new high-value skills that expand both my creativity and income.
88. I create beautiful things simply because I want to create them.

Travel, Style, Pleasure & Living

89. I travel much more frequently.
90. I take spontaneous trips without overthinking whether I am “allowed” to enjoy them.
91. I take myself on beautiful solo dates and genuinely enjoy my own company.
92. I enjoy regular spa and beauty experiences.
93. I build a perfume collection that reflects the woman I’m becoming, including beautiful scents such as YSL.
94. I own more high-quality wigs that make me feel beautiful and confident.
95. I build a wardrobe filled with comfortable, elegant, high-quality clothes that actually feel like me.
96. I own beautiful, comfortable shoes that allow me to look polished without sacrificing comfort.
97. I get a new phone with an excellent camera, enough storage and smooth performance, and I genuinely enjoy using it.
98. I experience more luxury, beauty and beautiful experiences simply because I enjoy them—not to prove anything to anyone.
99. I have enough disposable income to spontaneously say yes to experiences, travel, good food, beauty and things that make life enjoyable.
100. I am fully self-sustaining, financially independent and genuinely free—free to choose where I live, what I work on, who I spend time with, where I travel, what I buy, how I raise my son and exactly how I spend my days.

The Desire Beneath All the Desires

Looking at these together, I don’t think the deepest desire here is simply money.

It’s expansion.

I want a bigger life.

A life where my income is bigger than my obligations.

Where my home is bigger than my stress.

Where my experiences are bigger than my routines.

Where my business is bigger than survival.

Where my skills are bigger than what I currently know.

Where my son’s childhood is bigger than the limitations I grew up around.

Where I can look at something beautiful and simply buy it because I love it.

Where I can wake up and decide:

“I want to go somewhere.”

And go.

“I want to learn this.”

And learn it.

“I want to build this.”

And build it.

“I want to rest.”

And rest.

“I want to give.”

And give.

“I want to say no.”

And say no.

Not because I am trying to escape poverty.

Not because I am trying to prove anything.

But because I have built a life with enough room for choice.

That’s what abundance means to me.

Not having the most.

Having enough and more.

Enough money.

Enough time.

Enough space.

Enough health.

Enough freedom.

Enough love.

Enough opportunity.

Enough security to be generous.

Enough confidence to be visible.

Enough stability to take risks.

Enough money that a slow month is simply a slow month—not a threat to my entire life.

Enough success that I can stop treating every opportunity as if it is the last one I’ll ever receive.

Enough freedom to choose my life instead of constantly reacting to it.

And perhaps the most beautiful part is that I don’t need to know exactly how all of this happens yet.

I just need to know that this is what I desire.

So I’m writing it down.

I’m allowing myself to want all of it.

The money.

The house.

The land.

The business.

The plane tickets.

The beautiful clothes.

The perfumes.

The skills.

The garden.

The savings.

The machines.

The clients.

The freedom.

The experiences.

The peaceful mornings.

The successful launches.

The full bank account.

The beautiful cakes.

The adventures with my son.

The life that feels expansive instead of cramped.

I don’t know which desire will arrive first.

I don’t know which one will surprise me.

I don’t know which one I’ll outgrow.

I don’t know which one will turn out to be far smaller than what life eventually gives me.

And I don’t need to know.

Today, I simply choose to desire.

17 August 2026.

One hundred desires.

One year.

Let’s see.